Pixi Feels ... Strike a pose...

I could finally get a few pictures taken with my boepie. There's finally a nice round tummy to show off. The one morning I was really blown away... I went to bed with a flat tummy and woke up with a preggie tum. It was so nice, I couldn't stop giving Nunu hugs. I had a whole conversation with Nunu telling baby how much I love feeling tiny feet and fluttering inside me. The proof is out - and every morning after a shower is Nunu time, Nunu gets a nice belly rub with some special cream that smells nice and then me and Nunu talk 'bout what's happening and how we gonna face another day of adventure finding out about each other. Oh I love my boepie!!!

Pixi Feels ... Dizzy

Dizzy, when I stand up to quickly and baby gets first choice where bloodflow is concerned... ok, ok ....1,2,3,4,5.... There, I can see again, and walk... I've now learned the art of getting up slowly from the couch and not jumping out of bed. I'm getting there! I've also had a slight scare of ending up in hospital due to dehidration, as I get the worst megranes ever (with all the side effects)! I'm prone to headaches, but this was the worst. Luckily hubby was by my side, very worried I might add. He stood outside for 5 hours while the not-so-fast ER crew tended to all around me and then me, as I was the "least critical". Well, all's well that ends well and I'm looking after myself 2x more than before, not that I wasn't! It's nice to see my belly expanding, but what a job in the mornings to get dressed! Must get clothes!!! I just wish to feel those butterfly feeling, can't wait!

Pixi Feels... Fat

Not in a bad light, I just feel fat now. You know the stage before looking pregnant but not being able to fit into your usual clothes. I wanted to wear a light pair of jeans on Friday and though my "fat" jeans will fit, 'cause they were really too big for me. Surprise surprise, they didn't! He he, I couldn't even get the zip up, not even a little, and this is when I realised I'm really pregnant. Although my tummy doesn't appear to be so big, it is! I read this month I will be getting bigger day by day, and I can't wait to show off my boep... with my little nunu in it!

Pixi Feels... Loved

I feel loved. Laying on the doctor's bed, feeling my hubby squeese my hand while he sees the baby for the first time, and hears the little heart beat for the first time. My eyes were filled with happiness and my heart was skipping a beat with emotion. I loved to see my husband's eyes filled with so much emotion and having that security of him by my side was amazing.... Today I felt loved today I felt emotion without words, today I felt my own family coming together....

Pixi Feels... Sick...

This has been one hectic week for me. I know how morning sickness feels, and suddenly, I'd rather have it again, than have this stomach flu! Luckily Doctor looked at Nunu and all was well. I couldn't believe this little jelly bean with legs are so busy, you can only see hands and legs going up and down and bouncing the whole time. I almost cried, it was so amazing seeing this tiny baby inside me. Me and hubby's going for our first check up together on 27 Feb. We are so excited! Think we're going to be able to hear a little heart beat!

Pixi Feels.... Don't want to drive in traffic

I don't want to drive in traffic anymore, you get a few different people who just drive you bonkers, while you're just going with the flow, they pitch up, and I begin to see red!!! You get these young guys, trying to make up for a lack in other departments of there life by driving a VW golf, a humagus bakkie or just a normal, but juiced up car..... I can spot them a mile away as they irritate and frustrate every driver who dares to drive too slow in front of them, even if it's peak traffic and everybody drives slow... I just get so worked up 'cause they want to practically catch a ride in your back seat, 'cause they drive on your bumper. If it's dark they put their spotlights on and blind you - to make you go faster, but with me, if I can't see where I'm driving I slow down. I even pulled over yesterday as this guy in his bakkie wanted to catch a lift again. He continued driving on all the other cars backsides so they can move.... and at the end he pulled over to buy a duster from the hawker on the corner, isn't that just dandy! For pete's sake, all the cars he so rudely pushed over now calmly drove past him. When I went home again this guy just couldn't wait to sit on my backseat again, 'cause the lady driving in front of me was taking the turn too slow according to him, I naturally slowed down, to mister at my back's disapproving raging lights and bumber kissing!

I don't know, maybe it's just my luck to sometimes bump into these people, especially now that I'm pregnant, poor Nunu's had to put up with it quite a few times. This one lady even assaulted me twice... She will now be summond to court, as I laid a crimanal injura claim against her at the police station. This lady really had a bad case of road rage. She climbed out at a redlight and started, then she followed me till I was at the drivethrough and started again. I was so rattled! I just had to calm down for Nunu's sake, I'm so sorry for stressing and raging sometimes, I can't help it sometimes, I think I need to get a shauffeur.

Pixi Feels... Confused?

Pixi's living in Confusion land... Then I'm in a dream state and the next reality hits.... Is this for real. Feels like I've been in some kind of battle, I'm sore and tired, hormonal battle if you ask me... Reality has not sunk in yet, Nunu is very small. My belly want to begin to show, or is it just my imagination, or me pushing out my stomach? I've got the perfect themesong : Dreams by the Cranberries, I've been listning to it since the beginning of the year, got the cd for xmas....

"Oh my life is changing everyday, in every possible way. Though my dreams, it’s never quite as it seems, 'cause your a dream to me.

I know I felt like this before, but now I’m feeling it even more, because it came from you.

Then I open up and see, the person fumbling here is me, a different way to be.

I know I want more, impossible to ignore. They’ll come true, impossible not to do, impossible not to do.

Now I tell you openly, you have my heart so don’t hurt me, for what I couldn’t find.

Talk to me amazing mind, so understanding and so kind. You’re everything to me.

Oh my life is changing everyday, in every possible way.

Though my dreams, it’s never quite as it seems’cause you’re a dream to me. Dream to me "

Pixi Feels... Nausea everywhere!

It’s official (grumble): morning sickness has struck, last night I started with evening nausea, yeah, I thought as the reality of being pregnant started to sink in. Today.... those same nostalgia is not happening. I'm not craving anything and all smells are too much to stomach. Well, at least now I know how it feels, and I can even feel Nunu kinda telling me it's only a little while, then you're use to me! My hubby is very supportive, shame! He brought me crackers and made me spiceless 2minute noodles, he even gave me a nice large glass of ice tea. This morning I woke up with a cracker in one hand and a glass of lemon water in the other, he's so concerned about me and Nunu... "Are you going to be ok? Sorry that I have to leave so early" He felt so guilty going to work today, he is a star, and I wouldn't make it if it wasn't for all his love and support!